four letter words

if you say something as ignorant as being a switch hitter on friday nights...you deserve to have a blog written about you. thats all im saying.
okay so, here is the real thing that i’ve been meaning to write about for a few days.Its about an ugly four letter word that some people have yet to fully comprehend. This word, when used as a verb implies total loss of control involuntarily and against ones will. It imply’s everything one knows being taken from them in the blink of an eye. It pays no attention to sex or age or maturity. It is power in the ugliest sense of the word. It aims to destroy people, and it succeeds quite well. This word, is never going to be a word that will ever be okay to use light heardidly. Kind of like the N word. Its not something anyone but the people of whom it has touched have ANY right to use. This word, takes lives figuratively and literally. It creates survivors and victims and lost souls. People who encounter this word feel lost and broken for a long time if not forever. Often they never return to the person they were before. Tears fall and pain pours out. Sometimes the experience ignites a new found passion however, that isnt something to expect. Sometimes, it tears families apart. Look into the eyes of a person who has lived this word and you will see everything you never knew, and everything they lost and everything they gained. You wil lsee pain like you have never known. (this does not mean its the worst out there, its just a new breed you have never seen and could never understand, unless you have been there. Out of respect for that pain and loss, please do not use the word lightheardidly, you have no idea what the ramifications of that might be. You will loose my respect indefinitly. I do NOT tolerate it. SOmeone who has been forced to live thru it, i wont tolerate it. I am still learning how to come to terms with it all and for you to use it as the punchline to some stupid joke...nope. Thats the end of the road for our story as any sort of friends. that officially ends it.
thanx for listening.
for those curious, that word, this four letter word that carries so much pain. RAPE.

short shorts and color guard

it is NOT the same thing when the school principle sent you home b/c your shorts were too short as when they sat you down in their office or sent you home bc of alleged gang affiliation due to the color of your shirt. Sorry. no such connection. Your poor choice in clothing does NOT effect the potential safety or you or your school mates. (and pleas dont say short shorts make her a target for perv's bc rarely does it happen b/c of clothing. STOP. ill win. dont start that fight with me please.)
so next time you feel the need to enlighten us with a personal experience. make it relevant. although id rather you not open your mouth at all. you give dancers and blondes a TERRIBLE name, all at the same time.

my fair brady/ maybe baby

so, we all know im a TV junkie. its true, its true.

So,
im watching adriane and chirstopher up to their own antics. They drive me nuts they really do. HOWEVER, its scary bc i can see some of my own issues in her. Our sad storyies of quiet a few similarities and watching her struggle where ive been told i will struggle. it scares me to think that i could end up where she is. how miserable it must be to be stuck in that headspace. it really, really scares me. hopefully this happily ever after will turn out okay

working on a come back

So this will become my new blog forever and for always. Its much easier for different reasons. stay tuned, there is a new fiction coming up, and blogs to come as well. happy reading lovers.

finally im free

i got rid of my myspace. it feels amazing. I FREAKING HATE IT. if i loose friends b/c of it then why would i be friends with them anyway, its MYSPACE.