heart attacks and lying eyes

jsut for the record, bc im an hour away in no right gives any of you permissio nto LIE to me about what is going on. It jsut makes it worse when i learn that there was deceit to try and protect me. Incase you all have forgotten I am darn near 23 years old. Which makes me a grown up, i checked the books, please stop acting like im fragile and broken, i fight my own deamons that say as much as it is i dont need confirmation. Thanks for breaking me down off of the strength I had saved up, it will only take me months to rebuild it up again anyway...i appreciate it.

woops

i fell in love. perfeclty happily accidentally in love.

as it turns out

i havent updated in a while, which is unfortunate, really it is.

so lets see what can I say...

This is my last term as a college student and i've never been happier. I can harldy wait for the next step. Especially b/c i have someone to support me while I figure it all out. Someone who loves me completely. Its so nice.
I never thought I would be able to feel this way and yet, here I am, smack dab in the middle of being in love. Im so glad he was there to catch me.
The rumors you hear are probably true. We are crazy about eachother and migh have done some almost crazy things ;)
you know, as i sit here and play my keyboard my mind begins to write words and illustrations and I am overwhelmed with cleaning yet to do so i must stop there but stay tuned, this flower is jsut begining to bloom.

flying without wings

we stood there, out on the ledge, giving every ourselves every chance to fall. As we stood there he encouraged me.
"Jump." he said
"No," I returned, "I will fall."
"Jump!" again, he encouraged. "don't be afriad"
"No, I will fall!"
"JUMP!!!"
"NO!"
& then he pushed me........
&I flew....